As I prepare to head over to your viewing and say goodbye I can't help but think back to the past two years--of times when I could have made the time to see you--of when I could have done more to try and bridge the gap between families. And when I think of these times I am angry with myself for not trying harder and I am sorry that I wasn't there for you. I hope you are at peace and now know how much you have always been loved and will always be missed. I hope to see you again someday and want to leave this poem I found that may help all those hearts that have been broken by your passing---
"Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there; I did not die." - Mary Elizabeth Frye
This has been quite the difficult time for the both of us. We can't seem to grasp the fact you are gone. You will forever be missed, James. You had a contagious smile that will never be forgotten. Shine down beautiful angel, for you are at peace now. RIP. You will forever be in our hearts. <3